Blow Me A Kiss And I Shall Be Yours Forever

since the slimming programme and the strict diet, i have lost 6kg overall in 4 weeks which is such a disappointment. i was hopping i would lose like maybe 10 or more since i either only eat once a day or not a meal in a single day. yet, to my despair, i have yet to achieve what i call a success in dieting.

i am feeling frustrated and angry. i dun wanna go back to indonesia looking still the same old me but something like.. lighter? well, the doctor say this is due to the fact that i have now gained the ideal weight so the body has slowed down the losing weight determination. which is bad!

to make things worse, kw made me so angry today eventhough he is so far away. imagine that. life sux.. most probably cos TOMORROW'S GHOST FESTIVAL!

this is sonya praba...da bday gurl!
these are my newly introduced frens except for cheryl which i knew from high skol..
this is me with my 7th glass of wine..
this is patric chua tryin to feel the taste of cold hard liquor down his throat.. haha..
this is the chocolate bouquet i made for her!

this is so funny!! the reason why im uploading this because i wan u guys to see bay's new side burn...notice it being so long.. and funky...

mine actually does taste nice eventhough the colors and the way they presented it sucked..
look.. im having frost bite in my mouth.. brain freeze...
its at ss15.. some place to eat super nice tong sui.. taiwanese style..

khar weoi came down to KL to be with me during my bday.. he was so sweet.. first he got me a ring in tomei which has a really really huge diamond in the middle then he went and got me a guess bag as wel... i would rekon he save the money instead..
i love you baby... thanks for the flowers and the gifts.. i reli love it!!


thanks to my family.. they brought me out to hv thai food..it was a dirty looking resto despite we wore so nice but the food were superb..

since back for sem break, my parents have spent nearly rm 4k on me.. neeta's herbal hair care expert (rm 1800), Diamond Contour Biomesosculpture - Firm Body Sculpting in skin specialist (rm 1500) and my cosmetics (rm 1600)..

well the second one is actually my weight lost management programme where they kill off my fat cells.. like liposuction but this is external.. liposculpting.. hopefully it works on me la.. but from the internet the work is amazing..

now im taking duramine and mediaxil to control my weight.. cos since i went back to indonesia 6 months ago, i put on 8 kg! imagine that.. heartbreaking i know..

but nvm! confident i will lose it even more by the time i go back to indonesia.. pray hard!! keke..

then this is the me now.. fuck anot.. what kinda hair style is this la.. make me look so old.. like a young gurl trying to look older..

it was a really sweaty and tiring trip.. we all were complainin bout the stupid weather and the farking journey but all went well.. brought alona around.. main point.. everyone enjoyed i guess.. keke...

well this is for my dad.. thanks to bay.. he thought me to kill my times at home..


since i couldnt just do for dad eventhough its his bday, scared mom jealous.. keke.. so i did one for mom as well.. keke..


the last one is for my darling kw's mom.. her bday is around the corner.. so muz win her heart... keke..

well life in Msia's been good so far except for the fact my car broke down and ive been stuck at home most of the time.. it's ok.. i can live with tat.. since mom keep bringing me shopping.. she's been sooo extremely good to me.. getting me anna sui's cosmetic accesories and some estee lauder's as well.. keke..

well u say blogging is to tell bout my feelings, my views, my opinions and my critics.. well u r right and i am right too.. i am writing bout my opinion and my views about u and meei meei.. not in details of cos but in a really sarcastic way.. if u dun like it, pls do leave some comments.. thank you..and pls dun spam me for saying what is right.. u know it deep inside what i mean..

well well finally long wait ya.. sorry for the long wait.. especially to tennyson and tan boon shen.. i bet u guys cant wait to get hold of meei meei's bday party pictures.. keke. well for those who do not know what i mean, let me explain la.. these two silly boys i mentioned?? well they have a reli huge crush on my good fren meei meei and for her, they did so much things on her party to make her weep in joy and touch.. well let's have a good look at what they did la..

these few days din update cos my fren from indonesia came along.. her name's alona.. well she stayed in my hse for like 3 days then now she's gone to genting and then to ipoh.. afer ipoh then penang then a flight from penang to singapore to meet her relatives then take a train to paloh, johore to meet kw then after that i will take a bus trip down to paloh to meet her with tan, tenny (maybe) and all.. stay there for a day or two then travel to melaka to look see then finally bck to kl..

anyway, after sneding off to kl central today, my mom, amy (mom's cousin) and i went out to do some customers hunts.. finally we went to do some installation stuff.. oh yea, forgot to relate, my mom is now into cctv and all.. they r suppling cctv, alarm system and bla bla bla.. quite good.. all stocks r sony n sharp from taiwan.. if u wanna know more, go google.com type in flyled cctv malaysia or u could just go to http://flykl.blogspot.com..
pls do come see la.. they sell quite cheap.. keke..

neway after a long day of sweats and hot sun, my mom brought me shopping.. we did a shopping spree onnnnnn....... cosmetic products.. at first mom wanted to get some estee louder products for herself so i like chipped in a lip gloss.. and she said nothing then i asked her whther i could get some anna sui stuff jokingly and suprisingly, she said YES!! woohooo.. in the end, we spent rm 1400++ .. keke.. thanks mom.. ur so generous!!

Woke up around 2pm with flu.. bad one.. then after that fever.. i was feeling so weak..
preparing for something big today.. so had to gather energy, ate bread around 3pm then vomited in the toilet while taking my bath.. stomach weak.. then around this time onli took my dinner.. which is 2 slice of bread with tuna and 1 bottle of coke zero.. i know i know.. wrong move.. so now having gastric pain..
what a day..
now very depress.. feel like going home now..miss my family.. my sisters...
i applied for clinical attachment in hospital besar putra jaya.. for 2-3 weeks.. hope it will work out fine.. wanna learn more b4 i enter my clinical yrs..

i dreamt again that night..a dream i always wake up either drenched in cold sweat or wake up crying.. the only person who knew what the dream was is Aaron and he would hear my small shriek and come to me.. holding me.. soothing me back to sleep.. i wish i could forget 'him'.. the one in my dream.. the one who has been haunting me close to 2 yrs.. since the day 'he' left me.. God/Buddha/Anyone please help me.. help me forget..

My heart is aching
I can’t get you out of my mind
My life is in hell
When you left me

I don’t want to see you
I don’t want to think of you
I want to forget you
But I just couldn’t
I think I still Love you..
God No...

My love for you, I despise
To hold on to you
Is What I yearn last
So stop it, get out
I Wish you dead

yup.. i've been having depression after the uni admin changed the dates of exams and brought forwarded all the exams and left me with an extra 2 weeks hols in Indonesia..well.. it sounded like good news and it is but the main problem is that me and my house mates have booked the ticket back to msia way earlier.. well if it was cheap to change my flight ticket, i would have done it but the problem is.. it isnt so im stuck here.. so to fight back depression is to SPEND MONEY.. and not just spend but SPEND ALOT OF MONEY..so what i did is.. right after my last finals, i went to the nearest shoppin mall and got myself a new pair of reebok sport shoes and after that, that night itself, i went and sis my nails for rm 40.. around there... then the following day which is today, i went and did my aromatherapy foot spa.. pedicure and all for rm 50 plus.. yes.. it feels sooooo.. no.. wrong saying.... sssuuuppppeeerrrr..... NICE..