Blow Me A Kiss And I Shall Be Yours Forever

Woke up around 2pm with flu.. bad one.. then after that fever.. i was feeling so weak..
preparing for something big today.. so had to gather energy, ate bread around 3pm then vomited in the toilet while taking my bath.. stomach weak.. then around this time onli took my dinner.. which is 2 slice of bread with tuna and 1 bottle of coke zero.. i know i know.. wrong move.. so now having gastric pain..
what a day..
now very depress.. feel like going home now..miss my family.. my sisters...
i applied for clinical attachment in hospital besar putra jaya.. for 2-3 weeks.. hope it will work out fine.. wanna learn more b4 i enter my clinical yrs..

i dreamt again that night..a dream i always wake up either drenched in cold sweat or wake up crying.. the only person who knew what the dream was is Aaron and he would hear my small shriek and come to me.. holding me.. soothing me back to sleep.. i wish i could forget 'him'.. the one in my dream.. the one who has been haunting me close to 2 yrs.. since the day 'he' left me.. God/Buddha/Anyone please help me.. help me forget..

My heart is aching
I can’t get you out of my mind
My life is in hell
When you left me

I don’t want to see you
I don’t want to think of you
I want to forget you
But I just couldn’t
I think I still Love you..
God No...

My love for you, I despise
To hold on to you
Is What I yearn last
So stop it, get out
I Wish you dead

yup.. i've been having depression after the uni admin changed the dates of exams and brought forwarded all the exams and left me with an extra 2 weeks hols in Indonesia..well.. it sounded like good news and it is but the main problem is that me and my house mates have booked the ticket back to msia way earlier.. well if it was cheap to change my flight ticket, i would have done it but the problem is.. it isnt so im stuck here.. so to fight back depression is to SPEND MONEY.. and not just spend but SPEND ALOT OF MONEY..so what i did is.. right after my last finals, i went to the nearest shoppin mall and got myself a new pair of reebok sport shoes and after that, that night itself, i went and sis my nails for rm 40.. around there... then the following day which is today, i went and did my aromatherapy foot spa.. pedicure and all for rm 50 plus.. yes.. it feels sooooo.. no.. wrong saying.... sssuuuppppeeerrrr..... NICE..

ah lovely.. me and khar weoi.. updates on us.. well we are having a really stable relationship right now.. no more those ups and downs (thank god) though i wish he would be a little more warmth and caring towards me.. he shows little of his feelings and thats makes me lonely thinking/presuming he might not love me that much.. but of cos we had a long talk and he told me he's bad at expressing himself.. well.. let's see how it goes then baby.. ^^
nisha's 21st bday bash.. it was a grand one.. i think he spent more than 5 million that day.. that is.. in rupiah.. haha..
me and meei meei making.. god knows what.. but we were having bbq that night with the chinese gang in malang.. haha...happy moments..
clara, me and meei meei.. at nisha's 21st bday bash... babes in pujab's suits..rawls..
thats bay shing shen.. victor the drug addict.. he reli looks like one in the pic.. had a good laugh with the others...
at candi pramadan or something like that.. haha.. in jodgkarta.. if thats how its spelled.. what the heck happened to my spellings..
my blur blur bf looking at the camera.. rawl...
this is candi borobudur.. nice le..well when i was there, i couldnt help being amazed at how beautiful the place is.. couldnt imagine buddhism was so strong then..
ah.. wel this is suring kalai's 21st party in the hotel.. 'run down' hotel.. okok.. better not say too much.. she might come hunting me down.. anyway we are all posing just like 'gossip girls'.. well i LOVE THAT SERIES.. cant WAIT for the 3rd season to be out.. roar!!

well been a while since i updated my blog.. i was so damn busy with studies, activities and hang outs with frens a.k.a juniors.. lately, been eating so much.. put on some weight.. well hard to lose.. unless i start keeping fit now.. well to update abit of what is happening with my life lately. i will post some old pics.. ex: pics of me to borobudur, pics of me at 2 separate 21st bday bash and me at home doing nothing.. haha..